So beyond hurt

Lately I have been so hurt and upset that I honestly don't think there is anything anyone can say to make me feel better. Every single time I let someone into my life they screw me over in someway. I am tired of leaving myself open for hurt and rejection.

Have you ever heard the phrase that someone is just a rebound girl/boy friend. Well I also believe in rebound friendships. You know where you find someone and they are your best friend and everything shortly after they end a close friendship with someone. And no matter how much we tried to be there during that hard time of them losing a friend, as soon as that friend comes back around where does it leave you? Out in the cold. Sure you get a letter, call, email every now and then from them but it is obvious things are not what they used to be. And I know nothing I did changed. I have never been one to write, call, email often but I always responded. With 5 kids, husband and constant disability and sicknesses it gets hard. I am not saying "oh poor Patty" but I honestly have done what I can to keep up with friendships. I am so sorry my computer shut down for so long.

When I first started blogging I would get a couple comments about my blogs but what the hell is the point now. They only comment I get is "sorry your stopping your blog". Well geez maybe if there were comments before I wouldn't feel like I was talking to myself.

I think it would just be best to delete myself from all message boards, and blogs and just stick to facebook and myspace.